Thursday, October 27, 2011

I'm ok

I'm posting in order to move my last post down and not make people think that I'm suicidal or anything like that. I'm not and while things are really rough, I will get through this. Its not something I can blog about right now. I started this blog thinking it would be a place to write everything down almost like a journal and that no one would really read it but people occasionally wander by here and this is something that I just dont want out there. I'm signing off to go watch Nancy Grace to remind me there are people out there worse off than me. Hopefully I'll be back by next week with some more positive posts.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Too hard

Today was a really rough day. I cried all day long off and on. I dont know what to do. One of my teens cried himself to sleep. it was his own fault. It still hurt my heart to see and to know why. I have some big decisions to make. I dont want to make them. I just want things to be better and they aren't.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

I am on steroids!

I don't go to the doctor....except for annual checkup at GYN because well I have to.  But I don't get sick and I don't go to the general practitioner.  Hadn't been in at least 3 years.  Until I started running...
I have a spinal condition called spondylolisthesis and when I first started running I was (and still am) having a lot of back and hip pain so I went in to get checked to make sure running wasn't making it worse.  The doctor said everything looked okay and that I needed to strengthen my core and sent me off with an anti-inflammatory and some muscle relaxers.  Which I don't take.  Because I'm not very good at taking medicine.  I don't like it and I don't remember to do it.  I did take 1 muscle relaxer.....I couldn't do anything the entire next day.  The anti-inflammatory only works if you take it regularly and doesn't really kick in for 2 or 3 days.  So I'm sticking to my ibuprofen and aleve.
But yesterday I was back at the doctor's office.  I really don't feel horrible.  I felt like I might be coming down with something and usually when I feel like that I deny that I'm sick and take some airborne...ya know, just in case.  But during my runs this week I have not been able to breathe after about 10 minutes.  Like literally gasping for air and feeling like my lungs are closing up. And then coughing and tightness after. Normally I would think okay time to take some Airborne and rest up a little.  BUT, I'm running a 5k on Saturday morning.  And since my last one took me 43 minutes I'm thinking that not being able to breathe for the last 33 minutes would not be good.  I thought they would give me something to break up the mucus that I just knew was beginning to fill up my chest and maybe give me an inhaler to use to make sure my lungs were opened up on Saturday.
My lungs were clear.  She asked me if I had acid reflux.  Well yeah and it's really bad, but I came in here because I can't breathe, not because I wake up in the middle of the night choking on yuck stuff from my esophagus (ok, gross, I know.)  Apparently it turns out that somehow acid reflux can trigger bronchospasms.  And so can running in cold weather.  And the weather here has just gotten colder over the past couple of weeks.  So I have been diagnosed with exercise induced bronchospasms and acid reflux.  I left the office with 3 prescriptions.  Which I am going to do my best to take.  I did get an inhaler to use before running and remembering that won't be a problem.  A 5 day dose of oral steroids to help with breathing should also be easy to take since it's a short time.  But I also ended up with a prescription for an acid reflux medicine that I have to take EVERY DAY....for 4 MONTHS!  I'm gonna try but not sure how that one is gonna go.  Did I mention I don't like taking medicine?
Took the steroids this morning and discovered a wonderful side effect.   My hips didn't hurt all day!  Then I ran tonight...2.8 miles.  My right hip did start hurting by mile 1 but my left hip did not hurt at all and still doesn't!  Now my only problem is that I have gotten slightly out of shape over the last couple of weeks from not being able to run as long, but I still took about 30 seconds off of my mile pace tonight so my goal Saturday is just to beat 43 minutes....I'm a really slow runner I know....

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Tiny Moon explained

Since I recently posted a picture of my Tiny Moon Man I figured I would explain why I call my youngest child Tiny Moon.  He does not like it ....  but I do and I'm mean like that.  And I think it's cute and he earned it.  I have lots of little silly nicknames for him and he hates them all, and it doesn't stop me from using them when cuddling and snuggling with him. Tiny Moon  is the  name I use when referring to him on Facebook.  One of my friends once commented and said the fact that we call him that was so profound or deep or something.  She had no clue why we call him that.  It's really not profound or deep or anything like that.
One day a friend and I were sitting on the back deck chatting when she looked at the door and what did she see but a butt.  The butt of my youngest son to be exact.  For some reason he felt the need to pull his pants down and press his little hiney against the glass of the deck door.  My friend said "hey, I see a tiny moon," and it stuck.  She calls him that every time she sees him.  He "grrrrs" at her and pretends to be mad but I think he secretly likes it.  And besides, like I said he earned it.....and he'll probably never live it down...

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Tiny Moon Man

Free Ice Cream!

Status updates

Since it is so much easier for me to update Facebook than to blog and since i haven't kept up with blogging much the past couple of months, I figured I'd post my last 2 months of status updates.....including the never-ending Cosmo status that got stuck in cyberspace and kept resending itself.


Wed October 5, 2011, 8:30 pm: Watching the blind side with my boys

Tue October 4, 2011, 1:51 am: Wide. Awake.

Sun October 2, 2011, 10:06 am: Brrrrrrrrr!!!!!!

Sat October 1, 2011, 10:28 pm: Finally crawling into bed after a long day...i feel old

Sat October 1, 2011, 11:50 am: Someone needs to teach that dude how to catch...

Fri September 30, 2011, 8:57 pm: Just had flashbacks to skate a long U.S.A....saw a woman with a comb sticking out of her back pocket ...

Fri September 30, 2011, 3:02 pm: I am nuts.....signing up for another 5k before i chicken out!

Tue September 27, 2011, 5:48 pm: Tiny moon goal!

Mon September 26, 2011, 9:33 pm: When my mama told me life was hard I had no clue this is what she meant...

Sun September 25, 2011, 2:50 pm: Not last...

Sun September 25, 2011, 1:13 pm: 5k day!

Sat September 24, 2011, 9:02 pm: 15 minutes into a pg13 movie and I've heard the d word (referring to male genitalia) and the f word ...

Wed September 21, 2011, 10:32 am: I miss my most recent button....

Sat September 17, 2011, 9:52 pm: Tied up....Go ' Noles!

Sat September 17, 2011, 5:51 pm: I've never seen Christian P... eat so much!

Sat September 17, 2011, 12:43 pm: cannot wait to see Christian P... today!!

Thu September 15, 2011, 1:37 pm: I always worry when I hear the word "hypothetical".....

Tue September 13, 2011, 12:52 pm: Soccer snacks are expensive...

Sun September 11, 2011, 10:43 pm: That was not pretty...

Sun September 11, 2011, 4:39 pm: really glad my team isn't doing as bad as Nicole C...'s team is....

Sat September 10, 2011, 6:43 pm: Love that Boykin kid!

Thu September 8, 2011, 7:50 am: Will hopefully be washing clothes by this afternoon.....

Wed September 7, 2011, 9:58 pm: Dear words with friends friends, if you use a word generator or an anagram helper or similar cheat, please do not send me a game request....

Sat September 3, 2011, 7:39 pm: I love that Boykin kid!

Sat September 3, 2011, 1:49 pm: GO DAWS!

Sat September 3, 2011, 12:49 pm: thinks that Nicole C... is amazing......

Fri September 2, 2011, 12:12 pm: Had fun visiting with Angela C.... ...get well soon!

Fri September 2, 2011, 6:47 am: They told us never to put anything that isn't edible in the garbage disposal....contrary to what my kids think, legos are not edible....

Wed August 31, 2011, 5:59 pm: My baby is getting on a plane to Bahrain in a couple of hours

Tue August 30, 2011, 11:15 pm: Just finished "The Help" ... Very good!

Mon August 29, 2011, 10:34 am: To the friends who have not deleted me after the neverending Cosmo status fiasco....There are 4 runaway status comments that are randomly posting to friends' statuses. So far I've only seen them on statuses I've already commented on myself, but if you happen to see a weird or inappropriate comment by me on your status that's probably why and I'm sorry.

Sun August 28, 2011, 9:58 pm: I am going to bed...and hopefully my status is going with me.....

Sun August 28, 2011, 9:06 pm: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 6:19 pm: I swear I only sent that once...dang cherokee airwaves musta screwed it up

Sun August 28, 2011, 5:41 pm: I swear I only sent that once...dang cherokee airwaves musta screwed it up

Sun August 28, 2011, 5:25 pm: I don't know how to fix this....my status is stuck in cyberspace and keeps resending itself....

Sun August 28, 2011, 5:21 pm: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 2:10 pm: Ok, I left Cherokee and rebooted my phone....hopefully that will stop the repeat statuses...

Sun August 28, 2011, 1:46 pm: I swear I only sent that once...dang cherokee airwaves musta screwed it up

Sun August 28, 2011, 11:05 am: I swear I only sent that once...dang cherokee airwaves musta screwed it up

Sun August 28, 2011, 10:49 am: Also...do not update your status from harrah's...

Sun August 28, 2011, 10:43 am: I swear I only sent that once...dang cherokee airwaves musta screwed it up

Sun August 28, 2011, 10:42 am: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 9:50 am: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 9:37 am: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 3:45 am: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sun August 28, 2011, 1:17 am: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sat August 27, 2011, 11:58 pm: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sat August 27, 2011, 11:36 pm: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Sat August 27, 2011, 11:22 pm: Do not order a cosmopolitan from harrah's

Fri August 26, 2011, 4:15 pm: If you can read this you have a strong mind: TH15 M3554G3 53RV35 TO PR0V3 H0W 0UR M1ND5 C4N D0 4M4Z1NG TH1NG5! 1MPR3551V3 TH1NG5! 1N TH3 B3G1NN1NG 1T WA5 H4RD BUT NOW, ON TH15 LIN3 YOUR M1ND 1S R34D1NG 1T 4UT0M4T1C4LLY W1TH OUT 3V3N TH1NK1NG 4B0UT 1T, B3 PROUD! 0NLY C34RT41N P30PL3 C4N R3AD TH15. R3 P05T 1F U C4N......

Fri August 26, 2011, 10:25 am: so DONE with Sam's Club.....

Fri August 26, 2011, 6:53 am: Stupid cancer... we all want a new car... a new phone... freedom... a person who has cancer only wants one thing... to survive. I know that a lot of you "who think you're too cool" probably won't re- post this. But a very little amount of my friends will. Put this on your wall in honor of someone who died of cancer, survived, or who is fighting against it now

Sun August 21, 2011, 10:36 pm: This is so not the night for all my friends to go to bed early and the tv to not work!

Sun August 21, 2011, 9:25 pm: Could really use nancy right now....guess I'll clean some bathrooms...

Sat August 20, 2011, 8:36 pm: Going home with 3 tires

Fri August 19, 2011, 11:59 am: I've come to the conclusion that what I thought wednesday was just a headache and yesterday might be a sinus headache is actually a migraine...:(

Fri August 19, 2011, 9:38 am: ran 2 miles and then watched hundreds of 3rd through 5th graders run 2...

Thu August 18, 2011, 7:57 pm: I so wish I could post a video of my child dancing around to country music singing right along....

Tue August 16, 2011, 10:04 pm: Need to break up the icky stuff in my chest so I can breathe better

Tue August 16, 2011, 5:20 pm: Soccer!

Sun August 14, 2011, 9:48 pm: When the washer says it has one minute left I expect it to be done in one minute...not 18+

Sat August 13, 2011, 7:47 pm: Is getting crabs tonight...

Sat August 13, 2011, 11:04 am: today I don't feel like doing anything....

Fri August 12, 2011, 8:41 pm: New rule this year...no beer after halftime....that should have been announced earlier.....

Fri August 12, 2011, 5:33 pm: Sprayin' on the white rain, gonna get rowdy tonight down at the football game!

Fri August 12, 2011, 3:24 pm: 7 down 173 to go...

Fri August 12, 2011, 7:05 am: is ready for some Football!!

Thu August 11, 2011, 11:15 am: Just signed up for my first 5k....Lord help me!

Wed August 10, 2011, 9:19 pm: Will not be sleeping now....

Wed August 10, 2011, 9:32 am: Passionberry bliss just fizzed all over me...

Tue August 9, 2011, 12:05 pm: Now knows the entire life story of a woman in kroger who didn't know the price of the cheese slices...

Tue August 9, 2011, 11:10 am: Sams club will not be getting my money today...heading to kroger

Tue August 9, 2011, 8:11 am: Ran for 3 straight minutes...twice...

Tue August 9, 2011, 7:34 am: Cannot find my running shoes...

Mon August 8, 2011, 2:18 pm: When suddenly turning around after starting up the steps never assume you went up one...

Sun August 7, 2011, 9:47 pm: Nancy....where are you?

Fri August 5, 2011, 10:45 pm: Booyah....there, better yahoob?

Fri August 5, 2011, 10:18 pm: Blah...

Fri August 5, 2011, 11:46 am: filling out school forms....in triplicate....

Fri August 5, 2011, 6:40 am: Note to self: sleeping in your workout clothes does not make you more likely to work out in the morning...

Fri August 5, 2011, 5:58 am: In the 45 minutes that I've been up I've managed to open the back of the coffee maker...

Thu August 4, 2011, 8:13 pm: Cannot wait to sit down and watch mindless guilty pleasure television...

Thu August 4, 2011, 3:50 pm: All boys home and accounted for

Thu August 4, 2011, 2:01 pm: 1 down 3 to go....

Thu August 4, 2011, 9:53 am: Just realized.....I'm not getting anything done!

Thu August 4, 2011, 6:09 am: The bus just left to take my boys to high school!

Thu August 4, 2011, 5:20 am: It is too early!

Wed August 3, 2011, 10:41 pm: My children will not go to sleep!

Wed August 3, 2011, 9:38 pm: To my child's teacher: my children have lost all off my kitchen towels so when I dumped water all over the kitchen floor just now I had to use your roll of paper towels to clean it up...i did however send the kleenex and wipes and sandwich bags you requested...

Wed August 3, 2011, 7:27 pm: Apparently belts have feet...just wonderful with school starting tomorrow and a belt required..

Wed August 3, 2011, 5:20 pm: Animal planet is much better than nickelodeon but man it makes me cringe...

Wed August 3, 2011, 3:17 pm: Note to self. Don't take 4 kids grocery shopping...EVER

Wed August 3, 2011, 9:28 am: Just made coffee and realized I have no creamer and no milk in the house...

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

5k

Have been feeling super blah lately and haven't been able to make myself sit down and read blogs, much less update mine.
I ran my first 5k last weekend.  It was 42 minutes and 56 seconds of pure hell!  It was 86 degrees outside with no clouds in the sky and the sun blazing at 3 in the afternoon.  I think the heat index was around 90.  There was only 1 water station.  My fingers swelled up like sausages and I thought my ring was going to cut off my circulation.  A few times I was actually afraid I might pass out.  I had been training for this for 3 months, but my runs had all taken place early morning or late evening and most were only 2 miles ( I had only completed 3.1 miles twice.)  It was brutal; however, I did finish.  Second in my age/sex division.  There were 2 of us in that division.  I was 48th overall out of 62 and ended up with a medal and a tshirt.  I must be a glutton for punishment because I'm getting ready to sign up for my second 5k.  Hoping to do better this time around.